Jul 12, 2009

forgive my indulgence

the post is so titled because i have nothing sartorially-related to say today. it's been a fortnight at the law firm, and i enjoy what i do but the hours are long (fact, not complaint!), and the mind gets tired. but i'm glad i've realised that this is for me, as opposed to running in the other direction.
 
i feel an acute disconnect with certain parts of my life. you know how a gear system only works smoothly when every cog's in place? not every cog's in place in my life, and the halting shakiness i experience that should otherwise be seamless transition--it just means i have a ways to go. be it because my interests are eclectic, my interface to the world is strange, that i am somehow socially intimidating, or that maybe i'm just too damn average. all of those reasons are equally baffling and pathetic simultaneously-- i don't like getting shortchanged, so i will continue to resist the suffocating encroaches of the distinct helplessness that i'm not getting my money's worth out of life. 
 
of course, its tough not to get into specifics, but it is for that very reason that i won't. this platform is NOT to be abused with mindless selfcentred rants, published in the hope that someone out there will have a comforting anecdote or two. i want to continue to use the public arena as wisely as i can...and besides, i'm not on my 5th journal for nothing.

So, it's been a really long while since i had anything of worth to say on this platform... and for good reason. i've been thinking for a long time about how these blogs serve more than the readers and their voyeurism/genuine interest/boredom (delete where applicable); they feed on our own need for approval and exhibitionism. i am glad each time someone says "nice outfit!", or "great shoes!", but if my blog is about me and what i wear, then surely that's too shallow a reason for its existence. 
AGAIN, let me disclaim that this is completely a personal opinion, and i reserve all rights to respond to this matter on that note. 

lastly, do forgive my indulgence--if it does so happen that you've actually persevered with reading till this point. once in a blue moon, i do need to air some views. 

have a good week all!

10 comments:

Cathy Voyage said...

I wish you a nice week, too!

Lexie said...

i think you should be able to do whatever you want with your blog. sometimes i think about how WEIRD it is that i document/post what i wear from time to time, but you know, i'll never understand golf either so i think it's okay. as for being shallow .. nah.

Maverick Malone said...

Hey LT :)

I know what you mean, about the whole blogging thing. Sometimes I wonder why I blog, and I've realized that it's a really good artistic outlet for me. It offers a variety of mediums that I can explore (photography, designing my dresses, styling, graphic design, HTML coding, writing, if I so choose, etc.) and I can exhibit it, basically to the world and get feedback. I'm not entirely sure if other people feel this way.
OBviously, i'm not sure what's going on with you, but I hope that things work out :)

Take care,
xox, Mavi

Ashford said...

ha, i rather enjoy the fact that my interface with the world is strange.
I say this in the most non-shallow way possible, lovely post my dear ;)

Lil Midget said...

I think sometimes blogs do serve the purpose to reduce one's insecurities (or stroke one's ego) by getting comments like 'you look gorgeous' or 'that's really lovely'.

But perhaps, blogs are also platforms to express one's ideas on topics like fashion, shopping, feelings etc and to express and get ideas.

Hope you are feeling like your gears are getting oiled and things will run much more smoothly for you

:)

KIRAFASHION said...

The same for you!
Your blog is so amazing!!!

Kisses,

Kira

pennerad said...

how very adult. i thoroughly enjoyed reading this, although it was posted ages ago. i feel quite shallow myself, so much so that i've decided to alter the way in which i present my blog to the world. but i'm not sure yet that i'm going to altogether delete my seeemingly silly little blog. just revamp it a bit, but i DEFINITELY understand where you're coming from.
going to go rifling through your pages now. muahahaha.

Hanako66 said...

good luck to you....

I feel the same way sometimes!

surimay said...

hmmm i think you're quite right. i like to use my blog as an extension of myself and what i like. and sometimes to figure out if what i wear has any attractiveness at all! haha. i like to keep up to date with everything though. the fashion blogging community helps a lot! and everyone is so friendly! :)

hope you come back to blogging a bit more soon. you don't even have to blog about fashion! it's your blog after all :D

<3

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