Feb 21, 2008


it's hard to write this without mentioning names, but i'll try it nonetheless. that's one thing about my favoured pen-and-paper outlet...it takes A LOT of energy to be writing 10, 20-page entries at 4am! so typing will have to do. in any case, i suspect no one will read this so omitting names isnt even necessary, and iguess iw ill be too embarrassed with what i typed at this ungodly hour that i;ll remove it anyway..

i miss you. and you and you and you. and you.
what have we become?
maybe it's me, i will not rule that out. but somehow, i doubt it. OH, dont think i mean its YOU. it's other people. people outside our nice little world who have trespassed. (except that trespassers cannot be prosecuted... YES PPL> the sign is a fallacy, nonetheless effective in its utilitarian concept of scaring people off. how apocryphal. thats what you get from a typical law student. at least one who listens 70% of the time. PSHAW!)

people change, things change, relationships change. should one enjoin oneself from feeling disappointed? hurt? sad?
these emotions are very raw, and very real. and in all honesty, when i feel taht stab in my heart, yes, it does actually hurt. if you dont know what that feels like, then i guess it;ll only be a matter of time.
(what, you thought "heartache" was a metaphor?)

but the strength in one's character can be said to be found in the way in which he reacts. a la Newton... do you get on with life, try to patch things up, do something about it, mope, or let it slide?
i'm not sure which option i'd pick, but necessarily it can be said that i CAN get on with life;whether or not the level is optimal, thats another thing.

even worse. when the person's moved on and you havent. GOSh doesnt that just feel like christmas day for you? he casually walks past, nary a glance in your direction; you try to execute the same thing..only you end up looking suitably decapitated. decrepit. dejected. they all go together, each one worse than the next, all of them a scary multiplier of the other, drowning you in a mire of NO WAY JOSE.
(this , btw, does not refer to, or is not confined to, the concept of an ex. PLEASE. i'm not good terms with everyone ive dated, save one.)

either way, when you lose someone in your life...not so much through a big bang, explosive LOST type pyrotechnic blast, but through a casual, gradual drifting, the ebb and flow of life's current moving you apart, till all you have is the distant horizon, the cold of the ocean against your blue skin, and the piece of driftwood you so desperately cling to.


Feb 20, 2008

fashion frivolity

in the midst of HORRID HORRID law stuff (will not share more than i did in the previous post), it is imperative that one finds one's way of distraction and entertainment. for me:
gamerival.com (my bro and i hv this ongoing challenge to beat each other's score...)
gossip sites (which are a mainstay for me ANYWYA)
reading (whatever home subscriptions i can get my hands on: time, newsweek, 8days)

unfortunately my piano has been overhauled but as i type it is being reinstated to its former glory HURRAH! finally osme music in my life again... i miss my piano alot. its been gone for a month essentially.

and now to add ot that list i have: frivolous posts. share the love, why not?

lovely pucci shades. i think i featured a pair of sandals (lace-ups?) in the previousfew posts... and although shades are not my thing, these are very lovely. the colours are wonderfully pucci-esque. and even if you never knew hte label, its objectively nice too!

pretty obvious. i thought these were from galliano but when i figured out it was L.A.M.B. it all made perfect sense! irreverent as always, these are eyecatching and have more personality than your average beauty queen. only if you dare.

richard nicholl. i love the ruffles on the dress, and the color to be is absolutely classy and gorgeous. i love it!!!! IF ONLY it was carried here! and of course the blazer is sharp without being manly, and it is tres simple...or as i learnt yesterday in legal theory (BLEAH), simpliciter.

of course the 3 arent meant to be a holistic outfit (unless you were more daring than for your own good), but jsut a dash of fashion does wonders to keep your day huffing along.

now: back to

the starting pay better remain at 4.5k AT LEAST. HELLO.